oh fuck. It was a big mistake going to the agency. I wish I didn’t.
As I expected one guy working at the agency took my measurements (ONLY AT MY HIPS), and well, the result was obviously not good enough for them so he said that I need to lose it. But he said it in such a weird way, and explained to me all the different ways that I can loose it like
“worst you can do is eat sugar, sugar is never healthy, bla bla bla, you may have a sinful day once a week at a max – and I mean ONCE a week. Bla bla its better that you eat one whole cake just once instead of small pieces everyday etc etc. bla bla bla bullshit bla bla etc.”
Then he said “you should focus 100% on school now, and then when you graduate in spring mabye you could come back to us and we’ll see how things are then, and we can have a good clean re-start” – and WOAH. Wait. Hold up. DID HE JUST FIRE ME? “Mabye you can come back” ?!?!?! What the F.
and oh yeah, lets not forget “you have normal sized hips, but it can shock the customers” !!!!!! OH MY FUCKING GOD.
I’m gonna show them normal sized hips.
ARGH! I’m so emotional and frustrated right now that I don’t know what to do with myself!
FUCK.
I feel like this right now:
