Hello there people
I’m sorry about my absence, I’ve been such a failure that I don’t even dare to face this blog. And nothing special has happened in my life really, so I basically have had nothing to say. So what has happened? Nothing. School started, I had my 18th birthday and the weighing scale stands still.
My modeling agency has been silent for 6 months, until just a few days ago. They sent me an email saying:
“Hey there Jaqueline!
Long time no see! How are you? How is your body shape working out…?”
Well, it’s good to know that they still care for me. and fuck me, they want me to come over next week and take my measurements. Which means that 1 weeks starving is up on my calendar. Need quick quick weight loss. I know that I won’t loose that much on just a week, but it’s better than nothing.
I weighed myself just a few days ago, and the result was 65.0 kg. Hopefully I’ll reach 50 by Christmas. Can be a difficult thing to do, but I really want to succeed.
Today I had: Soup (65 kcal) + Cinnamon buns x 5 (375 kcal (!!!!)) + 50g Rice (175 kcal) + 50g cooked chicken (109 kcal) =724 kcal
yuck.
Tomorrow, no more than 500.
btw, I managed to get my hands on some ephedrine which has made me more awake and alert, and I don’t feel any hunger when just taken, but it fades after 3 hours or so. Though the side effects are pretty scary, I get dry mouth all the time and can’t stop drinking, sometimes my body (esp. my hands) starts shaking and I get sudden irregular heartbeats. Well, as long as it works…
