Today was my hide in the library during lunch time day. I was looking around for books about eating disorders and I found one book about a girl who had the same name as me and even lives in the same city as I do! You bet I borrowed it, and I can’t wait to read it! Books are underrated.
So for the casting part… First of all, I hate being in a room filled up with skinny, tall and good looking girls. They make me feel so bad. So fat. And so ugly. The guys interviewing me didn’t seem to be interested in me. I mean, who would when you get to choose between 20 skinny and flawless girls and fat and ugly me. WHY WOULD THEY WANT ME?
I feel like dying.
2 Comments
January 5, 2009 at 3:20 pm
I tried for a long time to become ana but it’s a tough process that takes long time to get used to, can’t do it overnight. You have to work on your discipline and ability to tune out everything. Focus. Staying true to your goal. Never let go of your self discipline.
So as preparation for that, go on a fatty LCHF diet, restrict your calorie intake to 1300-1400 a day and exercise DAILY, 1-1,5 mixed cardio and strength.
I swear by this as weight literally flies of you! I lost 1kg a week with this method. That’s the biggest weightloss possible if you want to lose fat and not just water, and keep it OFF. Plus you get toned!
And believe me, it’s a good introduction to real ana..keeping 1300 kcal a day if you lead an active life is tricky but worth it, you train at self control (it gets better as you go along!) but enough not to send your body into immediate starve mode where all you want to do is BINGE BINGE BINGE.
Don’t crash starve. It tells your body to PILE ON weight and to NOT LET IT GO. Quite the opposite of what you want to achieve…
If you binge or feel like you’ve eaten too much – use your toothbrush. Then next time you want to binge, you’ll think before.
Good luck sweetie!
January 5, 2009 at 3:21 pm
Oh and remeber – NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS THIN FEELS.
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