I hate that I love cookies. I don’t even want to talk about what I ate today.
Last night I had my crying night. I’ve cried so much lately. Just crying and crying for everything. And nobody hears me crying, and I’m not even sure what I’m crying about. Except when I cry about my fatness. I found some anxiety reliever pills in the medicine cabinet. They will be needed in the future, thats guaranteed.
Anyway, I found this new thing called Hoodia, which is said to be an appetite suppressant and has not side-effects. Isn’t that amazing? Like a magic plant. Hopefully I will get my hands on some hoodia pills.
Tomorrow is the casting for ****. And to be honest, I’m really scared. I’m scared of being rejected. But I must face my fears and hopefully, what ever happens, it will make me stronger. But I hope I will get the job so I’ve got some money for christmas!
Wish me luck and stay strong <3
2 Comments
November 11, 2008 at 9:49 pm
ok, if that’s you in the picture, how could you say you are fat? you are fine, stop taking pills. I guess you are talking about hoodia gordonii pills, they haven’t discovered any side effects yet so… Regarding you been scared, well, don’t be afraid, be confident and you will reach all your goals!
November 12, 2008 at 5:19 pm
It’s not me on the picture, I’m waaaaaaaaay fatter than that hot chick. sorry