Fat, fatter, me

Today was my hide in the library during lunch time day. I was looking around for books about eating disorders and I found one book about a girl who had the same name as me and even lives in the same city as I do! You bet I borrowed it, and I can’t wait to [...]

Work It

Butt pt 1:

Butt pt 2:

Abs pt 1:

Abs pt 2:

Black Tongue

I hate that I love cookies. I don’t even want to talk about what I ate today.
Last night I had my crying night. I’ve cried so much lately. Just crying and crying for everything. And nobody hears me crying, and I’m not even sure what I’m crying about. Except when I cry about my fatness. [...]

Empty shell

Today I had an emotional breakdown. I had a feeling that my parents were suspicious about my eating habits so I decided to make some breakfast for them just to make sure that they weren’t gonna suspect anything more (also because it is fathers day).
So I woke up about 9 am and made scones and [...]

vicious

Today I did fine in the morning. I decided to stick to 2 eggs on dark bread just for breakfast and not eat for the rest of the day when suddenly I got this huge craving for sweets. So I ended up binging like a mad person on cookies and milk until a flie landed [...]

emotional hiding

Today = good day. The only things that entered my stomach was 1 cup of Green tea & loads of water. I went to the library during lunch break, it’s my new getaway from everybody. I feel good there. No food around me and nobody knows me. It’s just me and millions of books. I [...]